Dear reader,
I’m so often consumed by the idea of time. I think about how relative it is. How it’s a drug. How much time matters. And how much it doesn’t. It’s elusive. Invisible. A construct entirely made up.
This week, Tesla announced their new general-purpose robotic humanoid, Optimus, or Tesla Bot. In the videos I’ve seen, I can’t help but personify him/her/they. It has a hint of humor. It’s programmed to fit into human culture, throwing up the peace and I love you sign. It has a human shape. After seeing some tasks it can complete, I caught myself thinking how helpful it might be to have a third set of hands to help with dishes, laundry, groceries, cleaning, yard work, and more.
But that’s where my thought stopped. I truly can’t imagine bringing an Elon Musk-created robot into my home. At what point in my life did things become so overwhelming that my moments suddenly needed to be allocated to artificial intelligence?
I regret to report that my time loss in 2024 is probably at an all-time high. Technology continues to be at the forefront of nearly every moment. AI has become a second brain. It’s integrated into nearly every web app. I watched several natural disasters unfold in real-time. An hour on TikTok feels like minutes. I can stream television for hours on end. I work on the computer. My life seems to be run by Google Workspace. I plan everything in Notion. Advertisements are placed anywhere I might offer just seconds of attention. It feels like I can’t keep up. October feels like March.
I often find myself counting the seconds. I consider how I’m tallying my time. I become painstakingly anxious if I have to “wait around.” I question if I am allocating my time in ways that maximize my day. I simultaneously give myself excuses to ignore certain things because “it’s ok to choose something more fulfilling.” I am deserving. After all, it’s time that is cumulating my life.
I don’t think this is the right perspective, though. I am already moving fast and society tells me I need to move faster. Yet, there was a time when moments weren’t so calculated. When doing the dishes was simply a result of a warm home-cooked meal. I think a lot of life can happen during these in-between moments if I weren’t so quick to move through them. I could stare out my kitchen window and notice the shift in the evening light, the animals that come alive, the trees at dusk.
I use technology a lot. In fact, I would say I am unwaveringly pro-technology. I wouldn’t be able to create the art I am today with programs like Adobe Photoshop. But I want to get better at using it as a tool to capture moments in my. I don’t want it to replace me in the moment. I don’t want it to be my replacement. I don’t want to rely on it for entertainment. I don’t want to feel it’s the only place I can go to get a hit of dopamine. Or, for it to be the marketplace where my attention becomes a commodity.
While I actively try to limit my obsession with the idea of time, I keep remembering to also practice mindfulness. Observation. I want to tally moments, not the ticks on a clock. I want to be encouraged to use my viewfinder, and see my moments. As this modern era unfolds I hope to hold onto bits of humanity. Celebrate human interaction and bear witness to moments — even when they are as dull as doing the dishes.
If you are interested (or just as obsessed with me) in learning more about time as a discourse, I highly recommend these books:
Saving Time: Discovering a Life Beyond the Clock by Jenny Odell
Wintering: The Power of Rest and Retreat in Difficult Times by Katherine May
Dopamine Nation: Finding Balance in the Age of Indulgence by Anna Lembke
Do Nothing: How to Break Away from Overworking, Overdoing, and Underliving by Celeste Headlee
How to Do Nothing: Resisting the Attention Economy by Jenny Odell
Talk soon,
Lauren
P.S. I just opened a brand new print shop and dropped 5 new prints! I hope you check them out <3 enter the print shop →
Currently reading: The Paradise Problem by Christina Lauren
Currently watching: Sex Education
Currently drinking: Hot chocolate (my favorite fall/winter drink!)
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I really like the prints, and when i say they are so retro I mean it as a compliment<3
currently can’t afford but am imagining a motivational combo at the wall across from my desk: „why wait“ and „do it“.
I have thought about a print shop of some of my poster designs for a while and would love if to see how it unfolds for you in the future if you feel inclined to share.
Love the light! Don’t love the robot idea. Crazy to think of how much of our lives are already controlled by AI. Not a fan, gotta say!